"Home"

Since returning to Arizona after the holiday in St. Louis, I think the reality of Granty's absence has been setting in for both Damon and myself.  We don't have the bustle of the holidays to keep us busy or partially distract our minds....it's a harsh reality to accept.  I don't think I ever go more than a few minutes without thinking of Grant - he truly is always on my mind.

My commute, about 25 minutes each way, is usually filled with thoughts of Grant and rehashing in my mind everything that happened in those two months after September 27th (the initial MRI that showed a brain tumor).  I've started to wear waterproof eye makeup because I usually cry for at least 15 minutes of the drive...  There's a song, "Home" by Phil Phillips, that always seems to be on the radio.  I clearly remember leaving the hospital for the first time after that fateful MRI, driving home for a brief shower and change of clothes, and "Home" was on the radio as I pulled out of the parking garage.  I had never listened to the words before, but the lyrics resonated with me as I headed North on the 51 that day.  It was like the song was tailored to a mother whose son was just diagnosed with brain cancer.... 

"Home" - by Phillip Phillips
Hold on, to me as we go
As we roll down this unfamiliar road
And although this wave is stringing us along
Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

Settle down, it'll all be clear
Don't pay no mind to the demons
They fill you with fear
The trouble it might drag you down
If you get lost, you can always be found

Just know you’re not alone
Cause I’m going to make this place your home

He's home now....we'll be together again someday.
My angel Grant.